exciting day

I'm in love with love right now..not the sappy type of boi hearts girl love..but the love for realizations and ways of seeing the world...

'when god shuts a door he (she) opens a window'
goodness this is true for me right now...

I'm struggling...you know I am..the ex just moved to AZ, I'm having to live on my own, and even though I make pretty good money..I have a hell of a time trying to budget..I'm used to splitting everything in 1/2 and now it's ALL on me...so of course I went into some type of mini depression..but that didn't last long...I mean come on people...i'm not going to say that I don't miss the ex..that would be stupid...I do miss her..but I feel like things have definitely changed since she's been gone (kelly clarkson song) lol

Today I got an email, and it totally MADE MY FRICKEN DAY! I got invited to an afterparty..no not the type of afterparty that is in some posh Hollywood club, no not one that is in a huge home in the hollywood hills, but one that is in a home in el sereno..organic, yes, fake, no. I can remember working in this little folk art store in Claremont called Espiritu and getting into my roots...I always thought that even though the store was little, how awesome it would be to showcase upcoming Xicano artists and have a little opening and all that...I longed for a lesbian art scene with grassroots community members and glamorous femme women, a place where we could both come together towards a common goal..devoid of the 'empty' club scene although sometimes we would go just to make an appearence. Well it seems like I'm slowly inching my way in. I have 2 shows under my belt. My buissness partner and I are working on the 3rd. A collaboration of women celebrating sexuality/sensuality in Long Beach...we have some popular names in the women's scene...I'm really excited. I can't even contain myself..it's like i'm meeting, hanging out, working with people that I really admire and that I look up to not only for their performance skills, but for their intellect.

The excitement is killing me..I feel like I'm coming home!