how did they know??

Your Fortune Is

If you run into your ex on the street, just shift into reverse and keep going.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

HA....

You Are 60% Gentleman

Generally you act like a gentleman, but sometimes you're careless with your manners. Most people know that you're trying your best - and that's usually good enough.

Are You A Gentleman?

and the song for the day is....

(The Cure) Lyrics
Song: Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel
Like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel
Like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel like I am fun again

However far away,
I will always love you,
However long I stay,
I will always love you,
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you,
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am free again,
Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away,
I will always love you,
However long I stay,
I will always love you,
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you,
I will always love you
_____________________________________

I absolutely LOVE this song...
I hope 311 plays it at the concert!

I'm sick

I'm sick of this 'she said' 'she said' bullshit

I'm sick of feeling this way

I'm sick of your threatening ways

I'm sick of your phone calls and text messages.

I know what happened.

I don't need constant reminders, my life is fine now thanks

My head is in a different place

She is here, and you there.

Ultimately, the choice is hers.

But,like the Monica song...you were only the 'Sideline Ho'

yes...google the lyrics. Dedicated to YOU.

'do you have the keys to the house? no? then you're the sideline ho'

Do what you want, do what you may, still talk, still call, still text.

you may have won the battle, but honey, I will win the War..

good times

This weekend was a blast (R) and I had the whole weekend off (including monday) since it was the 1 year anniversary of our fateful meeting. (we met at SFO pride last year)

We had a bunch of things scheduled but you know how FATE is, it kind of keeps you in check, especially people like me that like to control schedules.

Friday, we went to Acapulcos to have a drink or two or 3....

Sat, we went to this really awesome Thai food place in Studio city...
http://www.sompunthairestaurant.com/
OMG the food was soo good and we sat outside and had sake and thai beer and some yummy food!
then, we headed over to EastWest lounge in West Hollywood to enjoy some Lychee martinis and some margaritas
http://www.eastwestlounge.com/


Sunday was brunch in Montebello for the Tongue To Tongue brunch fundraiser. We saw Adelina Anthony there http://www.adelinaanthony.com/ It was nice to see her again, we hadn't seen her since serafemme last year. She has her one woman show running at the LA Gay and Lesbian center right now, so go check it out if you can. She's soo funny. Well after brunch, we went home and chilled for a min then went to the LA County Museum of Art. It was free all weekend, so that was cool, we chilled out saw some awesome art and then had a nice glass of wine.


Monday, was just a chill kind of day, we hung out at the house, were lazy...you know those lazy kind of days.....it's nice to just be able to chill....

and now it's Tuesday and here I am, blogging again. I can't wait till next weekend.

many blessings....

Tickets are bought!

YAY I'm soo excited. (R) and I are going to this concert...I'm sooo excited!
311 & Matisyahu!

See you Sunday

Sunday June 24, 2007
Dear Friends,

You are cordially invited to the upcoming Tongue to Tongue
Fundraiser Brunch and Mimosa Mixer
Sunday, June 24 from 11am-2pm
1312 S. 4th Street,
Montebello, CA 90640.
$10 suggested donation.

Come find out more about the Tongue to Tongue dialogues and
connect with other fabulous activists, artists, and other amazing
souls. Check out our website at www.tonguetotongue.org
http://www.tonguetotongue.org/ or
write to us at our new email: info@tonguetotongue.org.

Hope to see you there. If you can not attend but would like to
donate to make this event possible, please visit our website for
our Paypal link and mailing address.

I stumbled across an old Jewel poetry book that I had

Sometimes

Sometimes
I feel
my heart
fall
to vague depths between
words there
are such
spaces that
I can't help
but feel
My Heart
fall
between
the pregnant pause
of all you will
not say
and all
I can
not ask

-Jewel

OMG I'm in love AGAIN

she is TOOO HOT

Memories

of car rides from SJC airport to the city.....the view, amazing. In the car, with the bay bridge on one side and you in the car with me...and this song blasting....ahhhhhhhh


Sweet Thing

I will love you anyway
Even if you cannot stay
I think you are the one for me
Here is where you want to be
I just want to satisfy ya
You're not mine and I can't deny it
Don't you hear me talkin' baby
Love me now or I'll go crazy


Whou ohh, Sweet thang
Don't ya know you're my everythang
Whou ohh, Sweet thang
Don't ya know you're my everythang
Yes you are


I wish you were my lover
But ya act so undercover
Love ya child my whole life long
Is be right or be wrong
I'm only what ya make me, baby
Don't walk away,
Don't be so shady
Don't want your mind,
Don't want your money
These words I say, they may sound funny but...



You are my heat, you are my fire
You make me weak with soft desire
Love ya child my whole life long
Is be right or be wrong
I just want to satisfy ya
Cause you're not mine, I can't deny it
can't ya hear me talking baby
Love me now or I'll go crazy

You're my heat, you are my fire
You're not mine, I can't deny it
Don't you hear me talking baby
Love me now or I'll go crazy
You're my heat, you are my fire
You're not mine, I can't deny it
can't you hear me talking baby
Love me now or I'll go crazy
You're my heat, you are my fire
You're not mine, I can't deny it
can't you hear me talkin' baby
Love me now or I'll go crazy
You're my heat, you are my fire
You're not mine, I can't deny it
can't you hear me talking baby
Love me now or I'll go crazy

I am sooo not great with computers

Journey Tagged me (YAY)
but alas, I am bad with linking and only have a few min at work here, sooooooo I will just repost with many apologies to Journey (sorry girl)

Rules: Each person posts the rules before their list, then they list 8 things about themselves. At the end of the post, that person tags and links to 8 other people; then visits those people’s sites and comments, letting them know that they have been tagged, and to come read the post, so they know what they have to do.



1. I love EVERYTHING about being a Queer Xicana Femme
2. I work for a large utility company
3. I want to go back to school, but the commitment of that scares me.
4. I LOVE BUTCH/ANDRO women.
5. I am sex-positive
6. I love giving people surprises
7. I am moving to Lincoln Heights in Aug and my new roomate, Hazel is AWESOME. She's a fierce activist, artist, and to top it all off, a model for STUDS clothing.
8. One of my closest friends, DJ Claudia Dee, I have known since we were 6 years old...I love her, she's a great friend/sister.

INsPiraTion

Making love to you and with you is like knowing the lyrics of an unreleased Jill Scott song.

Laying in bed with you, hugging you, holding you, is like coming home. Feels safe and warm.

Looking into your eyes, I see stories, stories that I will tell my children.

Being in your arms is the singlemost inspirational thing I do.
I harness the energy of all the Picassos, Renoirs, Kahlos and O'Keeffe's of the world.
I feel like I could paint all the paintings that hang in the Louvre,if only you kiss me, right then and there.

Daily Om www.dailyom.com

June 14, 2007
Demolishing Anger’s Walls
Resentment
Anger, when channeled into the pursuit of change, can be a useful tool in our emotional palette. Anger is experienced by most people, some more than others. It is when anger has no outlet and morphs into resentment that it carries with it the potential to cause great turmoil. Allowing us to assign blame for the pain we are feeling, thereby easing it, resentment tends to smolder relentlessly just below the surface of our awareness, eroding our peace of mind. The target of our resentment grows ever more wicked in our minds and we rue the day we first encountered them. But resentment is merely another hue on the emotional palette and therefore within the realm of our conscious control. We can choose to let go of our resentment and to move on with our lives, no matter how painful the event that incited it.

Hanging onto resentment in our hearts does not serve us in any way. Successfully divesting ourselves of resentful feelings can be difficult, however, because doing so forces us to mentally and emotionally confront the original source of anger. When we cease assigning blame, we realize that our need to hold someone or something responsible for our feelings has harmed us. We thought we were coping with our hurt when in fact we were holding onto that hurt with a vice grip. To release resentment, we must shift our attention from those we resent back toward ourselves by thinking of our own needs. Performing a short ceremony can help you quell resentful feelings by giving tangible form to your emotions. You may want to write down your feelings and then burn the paper and close your ceremony by wishing them well. When you can find compassion in your heart, you know you are on your way to healing.

Free of resentment, we have much more energy and attention to devote to our personal development. We can fill the spaces it left behind with unconditional acceptance and joy. And, as a result of our subsequent freedom from resentment, blessings can once again enter our lives as the walls we built to contain our anger have been demolished.

There is always a 1st time for everything......

Last night, I went to the most FAB dinner with my team, which comprised of my Analyst, Attny, Case Manager and myself. We went to this FAB place called Foreign Cinema in the Mission district of SF. Had some nice wine and some great food. I tried raw oysters for the 1st time in my life...they were sooo good and tasty. I guess they are some really fancy types (that's what the Attny said) For my dessert I had the BEST cheese plate, oh I love food. I'm such a foodie. The atmosphere was great and a foreign film was playing outside...what a great place.....

I'm just also very proud that I tried the oysters...I'm pretty open minded when it comes to food...but just never thought I would eat that.... FUN

Past weekend.

got in a bit late from the airport. I was soo tired. E picked me up and we headed over to try and get a drink....well the place that we wanted to go to was closed, so we just headed over to her house.

We drank some wine, headed to bed and the next day headed over to Venice beach.

I love Venice beach, it's sooo eclectic. We walked around, saw a few street performers, then had lunch at a nice little cafe. We both had our palms read and the things that the people told us were eerily correct. On the way back home we went to Acapulco's and had a couple of strong drinks and a lot of great, deep and reflective conversations. This is where I realized that I made the right choice by coming home for the weekend......

Sunday I had to leave and well...that's about it.... now I'm back in SFO...missing SoCal I'm very ready to go home...a lot of changes are coming up and I'm excited and also have a lot of trepidation to see what fate holds for me.

ohh this is FUN

Your Stripper Song Is

Milkshake by Kelis "My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And they're like, it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but I have to charge" One thing is for sure: you know how to shake it!

What Song Should You Strip To?

is this true??

Your Reputation Is: Wild Girl

You love to give people something (and someone) to gossip about As far as you're concerned, all gossip is good gossip

Do You Have A Bad Girl Reputation?

thx journey.....

Your 1996 Theme Song Is: Ironic by Alanis Morisette

It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take Who would've thought ... it figures

What's Your 1996 Theme Song?

www.dailyom.com

This is perfect for me today...

June 12, 2007
Tranquil Longing
Pisces Daily Horoscope
You may feel drawn to the past today, and this nostalgia can prompt you to put aside your day’s objectives so that you can reminisce. This can be a wonderfully pleasurable and healthy activity, particularly if you have many happy memories to look back on. However, you may find yourself longing for the past to reappear and become ungrounded if you spend too much time comparing your current life and your personal history. Should this happen today, you can channel the longing you feel into constructive action by considering what precisely you liked about those days now gone and how you can recapture some of the bliss you once felt.

We sustain lasting feelings of inner peace even when we find ourselves longing to return to some earlier stage of our lives by reminding ourselves that while the events in our memory may have come and gone, the impressions they left upon us will last forever. During periods of upheaval, our nostalgia can reach an apex in which we not only look back on our reminiscences with fondness but ardently wish that we had not passed certain easier plateaus of development. When, however, we recognize the importance of ongoing evolution in our lives, we can appreciate the bliss of the past without wishing to return to it. Our obsession with our individual histories fades, and is replaced by a serene sense of grateful pleasure. As you reflect upon your past today, you will discover that you can vicariously enjoy what has come and gone without losing yourself in it.

Karma....I guess

My flight back home from SFO to LAX on Friday.....(such a short time home) could not have been any better. My co-worker and I had a bit of a little altercation due to our flight, we were confirmed on a 445pm flight but the judge let us out a bit late, and so we missed our flight, everything was soo booked so we were bumped to a 1035pm flight...OMG sooo late so we decided to stand by on earlier flights, we were not able to get on the 630p flight (30 people on the stand by list) so, the next flight was at 830pm and at this point I thought OMG we're not going to be able to get home till almost midnight...but sure enough, they called our names, and OMG when we got on the flight, low and behold...a 1st class upgrade....that IS how I roll...I was soo happy free drinks, and a nice comfy seat and blanket. A princess can get used to that....I guess it's all the good Karma from upgrading people when I worked in the airline industry.

Then, my co-worker and I check in to the St. Francis on Sunday afternoon for our other week long stay and we get to our respective rooms and low and behold....the rooms are SOOOOO HUGE. I can run laps in my room. The view is gorgeous and it's all sooo FAB! I love the FAB lifestyle it's soo ME and soo FUN!

a blog on the weekend's events will follow...

Daily OM

June 6, 2007
An Empowered Perspective
Importance Of Forgiveness
When someone has hurt us, consciously or unconsciously, one of the most difficult things we have to face in resolving the situation is the act of forgiveness. Sometimes it feels like it's easier not to forgive and that the answer is to simply cut the person in question out of our lives. In some cases, ending the relationship may be the right thing to do, but even in that case, we will only be free if we have truly forgiven. If we harbor bitterness in our hearts against anyone, we only hurt ourselves because we are the ones harboring the bitterness. Choosing to forgive is choosing to alleviate ourselves of that burden, choosing to be free of the past, and choosing not to perceive ourselves as victims.

One of the reasons that forgiveness can be so challenging is that we feel we are condoning the actions of the person who caused our suffering, but this is a misunderstanding of what is required. In order to forgive, we simply need to get to a place where we are ready to stop identifying ourselves with the suffering that was caused us. Forgiveness is something we do for ourselves, and our forgiveness of others is an extension of our readiness to let go of our own pain. Getting to this point begins with fully accepting what has happened. Through this acceptance, we allow ourselves to feel and process our emotions.

It can be helpful to articulate our feelings in writing over a period of days or even weeks. As we allow ourselves to say what we need to say and ask for what we need to heal, we will find that this changes each day. It may be confusing, but it is a sign of progress. At times we may feel as if we are slogging uphill through dense mud and thick trees, getting nowhere. If we keep going, however, we will reach a summit and see clearly that we are finally free of the past. From here, we recognize that suffering comes from suffering, and compassion for those who have hurt us naturally arises, enhancing our new perspective.

6-4-07

San Francisco
Bestill my heart
Yesterday was perfect. The weather is nice, the people are great and the city, the city is just amazing. I love staying in Union Square. The St. Francis hotel is fit for a Diva like me. Room service, porters, door men, it's just perfect. There is even a little chandeliere in my room. Perfect for the princess in me.

Last night, my friend Robin and I went to Alfred's steakhouse and had the best dinner. It was so fancy and amazing. The establishment is near the TransAmerica building and I am just in awe of that building. That building IS San Francisco. Then, when we got back to the hotel, we had a drink in the lobby. It was perfect, then off to bed. The bed has down comforters and high thread count sheets and like a MILLION pillows....I love lots of pillows.

Today we have hearings and if we get off early, we might take the trolley to the wharf....I love it!

I miss home...but this mini vacation is right on time..

Daily OM (right on time)

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June 4, 2007
The Real Thing
Love Should Feel Good
Often in our lives, we fall prey to the idea of a thing rather than actually experiencing the thing itself. We see this at play in our love lives and in the love lives of our friends, our family, and even fictional characters. The conceptualizing, depiction, and pursuit of true love are multimillion-dollar industries in the modern world. However, very little of what is offered actually leads us to an authentic experience of love. Moreover, as we grasp for what we think we want and fail to find it, we may suffer and bring suffering to others. When this is the case, when we suffer more than we feel healed, we can be fairly certain that what we have found is not love but something else.

When we feel anxious, excited, nervous, and thrilled, we are probably experiencing romance, not love. Romance can be a lot of fun as long as we do not try to make too much of it. If we try to make more of it than it is, the romance then becomes painful. Romance may lead to love, but it may also fade without blossoming into anything more than a flirtation. If we cling to it and try to make it more, we might find ourselves pining for a fantasy, or worse, stuck in a relationship that was never meant to last.

Real love is identifiable by the way it makes us feel. Love should feel good. There is a peaceful quality to an authentic experience of love that penetrates to our core, touching a part of ourselves that has always been there. True love activates this inner being, filling us with warmth and light. An authentic experience of love does not ask us to look a certain way, drive a certain car, or have a certain job. It takes us as we are, no changes required. When people truly love us, their love for us awakens our love for ourselves. They remind us that what we seek outside of ourselves is a mirror image of the lover within. In this way, true love never makes us feel needy or lacking or anxious. Instead, true love empowers us with its implicit message that we are, always have been, and always will be, made of love.

soul searching time

I'm going up to San Francisco for 2 weeks for work starting on Sunday. This business trip could not have come at a better time. I need to get away from LA. I need to clear my brain while sleeping on the Westin "Heavenly" bed. I need to have good conversation with co-workers and fall in love with the city. Although I will be tempted to hash out things with some bad blood up in the city, being a lady will always come 1st. I need to seach my soul and figure out what it is that I really want. I have been coming to some conclusions in the last couple of days that surprise even me....it's kind of weird.

I'm glad that I'm not THAT crazy. I'm not that Lisa-Lopez-I-will-burn-your-house-down kind of crazy. I'm just sometimes a bit over the top, and dare I say dramatic. I think we all have that in us. They say the best revenge is for your foe to see you succeed. That's my goal. To kill my foes with how fabulous I am, how happy I am, how awesome and fun my life is, because it is. Sometimes bumps in the road just help you in the way that you can brush your shoulders off and SHINE...it's my turn to SHINE..

San Fran here I come.......

A pearl of wisdom

"Love is just forgiveness when you know you've been done wrong"
From the song "Still" by Hope

Last Night

"Better than love, we made delicious" -Jill Scott